Karma

“Madam na weekend we dey. No bail. Come back on Monday.” The metal bars of the prison cell shook with the deputy’s voice. I saw the dissapointment on my mother’s face, but it was background to the real emotion that played on her features – fear. Her son was going to spend two nights in a prison cell, and she would not sleep or eat for as many nights. Suddenly, my own fear lessened in comparison and I felt shame wash over me.

Tunde was passed out on the floor. His parents didn’t even know he was in a prison cell. I tried to rouse him. We had to keep our wits about us, especially now that it was almost night. He didn’t wake.

The metal bars shook again, “Tobi I will be here first thing Monday morning,” my mother called out as two officers forcefully escorted her from the counter. With my mother gone, and with her any hope of bail, reality dawned on me. I gripped the prison bars and pulled, half hoping that I would pull them free from the ground, but all I got for my trouble were sore palms. I fell to the ground, drained of hope. Tunde stirred and I turned to see if he was awake, but he wasn’t. He’d had too much to drink. I scanned the rest of the cell for the other inmates but darkness answered my enquiry. It was night and they had retreated to the recesses of the cell, hiding in the dark like the evil men I had no doubt they were. I could remember quite a few of them from before it got dark. There was a fat one whose neck seemed to pour from under his head, and he sat on a stool near the back of the cell. A boy, no younger than Tunde and I, stood next to him. There was also a muscular one with a tattoo on his arm.

I sat by the bars, with Tunde on the floor next to me, and tried to recall what had happened. I had also had some alcohol and my memory was foggy. The past kept coming to me in patches. I remembered I was in the car when Tunde brought in Angela to the backseat. That was all. The next thing I remembered was Tunde and I being arrested.

I heard a grunt, and then another. The sounds emerged from the darkness and soon the cell filled with a foul stench. My guess was one of the inmates was taking a shit. The smell replaced the air in my lungs and my breath smelled of shit. My eyes even watered. I turned, facing outside of the cell, with my head between two iron bars. The air was fresher on that side. I closed my eyes and I remembered a little more.

Tunde was beginning to force himself on Angela when I left the car.

What was I thinking? I should have stopped him, or at least not let him do it in my car. I tried to remember some more, but I got nothing. Tunde stirred again and I turned to look, but he wasn’t awake. It was the fat man and the boy. The boy put a finger across his lips and mouthed, “shush.” My muscles froze. The fat man turned Tunde onto his stomach and stooped over him. He pulled down Tunde’s trousers revealing his buttocks, and then he started to pull down his own when he turned to me and smiled showing blood red teeth. “You’re next,” he said.

Attraction (1)

I feel awfully shallow because I like her because of the way she looks – innocent, beautiful, and four-eyed – and nothing else, because I know nothing about her. Something about girls with four eyes have always piqued a part of me, and it is this part that came alive when she smiled at me – or maybe the person behind me, either way, I caught the smile.
Do you walk up to people you feel attracted to and strike up a conversation? Or do you stalk them from a distance, from the shadows, taking in every twist and turn, every curve and edge, every one of those genuine smiles that has them squinting from behind their second pair of eyes and most importantly every info on their facebook wall? I have done the latter a couple of times and I surely am going to do the same here. 
Day after day, every atom in me moves towards her like I am made of iron, and she, magnet. I try to cling onto any and every excuse I can muster to not talk to her, but there is no going back, attraction has set in, and I am set on a collision course.
To quell my body’s yearning I stalk her for a few minutes and then I move in to attack the prey, or is it the predator now – for days her face has haunted me. 
I stand within whispering distance of my predator, and then as if on cue, every part of my biology begins to fail me – my muscles fail and my knees begin to knock against each other, my wits desert me and every attempt to speak leaves my mouth agape with no sound coming out of it. I stare into her eyes as she raises her head to catch the face of the imbecile before her, and then I see what the sun must look like from up close – the glow.
Next thing I know, I am in a hospital bed, I know this because I work here, as a student. It’s the teaching hospital; it’s almost impossible to miss it’s smell. I wonder what my diagnosis was; probably syncope resulting from seeing an angel. 
I try to think about the last few hours or days or even weeks – God knows how long I was out, – I try to picture the sun, but my attempt at remembrance is cut short when the nurse walks in.
“Good!” she says, “you are awake, Blessing was just here.” 
My thoughts drift for a while, who is blessing? The only blessing I know is hundreds of kilometers away in some other University.
“I am sorry, who…” I start to say, when I realise; Blessing must be the name of the sun goddess, my sun goddess. I catch the remaining words before they leave my mouth and then my face settles into a grin.
“When did she say she’ll be back?”

PERSEVERE: A Love Story

Let’s run away,  she said

With her eyes glistening with tears.

We can go to South Africa

There’ll be no one there who cares.

You would get your degree

And we’ll find new peers

Everything is perfect Bob,

Please say yes.

I cannot, sarah

I have a mum, who the loss she’ll not bear

Besides we’re teenagers

Who’ll pay for our care

Not my parents,

Because surely that they’ll not hear

And how about you, your parents

They are not even here,

So for starters,

How do you propose we get there.

You say you love me and excuses is all I hear

Together we can do anything,

I have it all planned out, trust me, have no fear.

My aunt has asked me to come over

To stay with her for a quater of a year

She said I could bring a friend

So home would still be near

And so I propose that you come with me

And when we get there, we’ll find our way to somewhere

Anywhere, where she won’t find us

And there you have it, we’re alone together, all is right all is fair

No parents to separate us

How could they even dare!

And yes they might die from the heartbreak

Still i do not care, for this please don’t think me queer.

It’s just that I love you

And that you know by know so please be cheer.

I love you too

But this plan has me trembling with fear

Why can’t we wait

Untill our parents bonds wear

Because if we are found out

Then my dear

We would have ourselves to blame

And also a lot of pain to share

It’s hard but please

The burden we must bear

For time alone will prove that

It rewards care

And patience

So my dear we must persevere.

More excuses I hear

I love you

And you tell me to persevere?

It’s obvious, you do not love me enough

Well, maybe someday you’ll get there.

Goodnight, leave me to suffer

Leave me to “persevere”

***

It’s valentines day

Three months since I turned my lover away

In the spirit of today

I pray we’ll find a way

Around her obsession with running away.

But my calls she hasn’t answered all day

I have to go see her and then what do I say

Will, you be my valentine? No that’s cliché

Mm, I will just have to go with that if I can’t think of any smart play.

Her parents are on the island and there they’ll stay

And have a romantic dinner on this valentine day

Perfect! I’ll sneak into her house, she’ll be alone and then we’ll play

Right after we’ve made up though, and then she’ll probably make some souffle.

He’ll probably come around today

And then he’ll see my gift that’ll ruin this and every other day

Perfect, he’ll see that he should have come with me, he should have run away.

I better get to preparing the gift before he gets here and tries to give me a sway.

Lovely, the door is open, she knew I’ll be here today

But it’s awfully quiet, everything is arranged in the best possible way

That’s more than I can say for my house, but anyways

“Sarah! Where are you time to come out and play

I am sorry for the other day

I said I am sorry, come see I brought you a gift, something to make you gay.”

Wow, no response, I must have really hurt her in a terrible way

Let me go see if she’s in her room, if not I’ll end my stay.

“Knock, knock, Sarah are you in there?”

The door is also open, how queer?

Oh my God! this is where it ends, it ends here.

“Bob my love, I hope you like the suprise

Please do not mourn my demise

I am free

So I ask again, Please join me.

And we’ll be together

Forever.”

She loved me and I said “persevere”

How could I have known how she would fare?

But I guess it’s only fair

That I agree to her last request.

Kill myself and lay all to rest

The End